First off, a disclaimer: I in no way endorse HSM as a good movie- it is 1:35 AM, and I am tired and slightly slap-happy. But do you wanna know why?
Because here, at the end of August, there are so many beginnings waiting for me! I always consider the start of a school year just as important as the start of a calendar year. The former has always held more tangible change for me anyway. Although its concept which will soon become outdated for me, here’s a breakdown of fresh starts:
Already, one new treasure has come into my life: my new cousin Keiko Alexandria Knight. She was born this morning, and is absolutely the most ADORABLE thing I have ever seen. She looks like my cousin Solomon, but smaller, and a girl, and with lots and lots of hair- even though she was just born this morning! My heart was about to explode with squishy-baby-infused love.
Secondly, I am headed back to school on Friday and it is kindof freaking me out. I’ve been off-campus for a semester, and have been away from some of my friends for an entire year! Plus, I’m living in a house! There’s so much space and responsibility in renting a house- I’m a bit overwhelmed with this, not to mention all the packing I’ve got to do before Friday.
Then there’s what I’ve been complaining talking about all summer- my play. Draft 3 is very close to being complete, which will be just in time, as Heather (my director), the production crew, and I have to start serious discussions THIS WEEKEND, not to mention auditions which will be next weekend! I can’t believe my writing is about to reach such an important stage (no pun intended), and that people are actually giving me money and school credit to put this on. It’s a lot of pressure. I want to prove that I’m worthy of the title “writer,” that I’m good enough to continue on with my dream even though I’m not a Creative Writing major. I want people to look at this play and understand my situation a little better, and hopefully raise awareness in the issues I talk about. It’s been my dream for the past year.
I’ve grown so much as a person over this last semester. I’m more confident, more outspoken, and more responsible. And I guess I’ll need that to get through this, my last year in Oberlin *tears up.* As much as I’m ready to go out in the world, it’s terrifying to know that after this lies the great unknown of post-grad life. Annalise and I were talking about it today: school is pretty much all we’ve ever known. What happens next is a huge mystery. I want to make a life in NYC, I want work on my careers of writing and acting, I want *blush* a nice relationship, and I want to feel comfortable in my skin, no matter where I am, what I’m doing, or who I’m with. As long as I continue to work on the latter, maybe this school year could be the start of all these things- or at least show me ways I can get to them.
Also, my writing tends to flourish when I’m multitasking, so expect to see more blog posts from here on out. I will be a very busy girl, after-all.
p.s. New/old Facebook photos of my time in Okinawa!